After spending the last few weeks with someone who has one of the strongest cases of a personality disorder that i’ve ever seen, i feel even more gratitude and appreciation for the people in my life. I feel like i say this too much, but on the other hand, i don’t think i can ever express it enough. My friends have been amazing. My family has been amazing. My coworkers have been amazing. The employees at Arizona Center for Cancer Care, The Cancer Support Community of Arizona, the HBO department at Banner University Medical Center, The Polish Room, Camelback Toyota, Tru Med Dispensary, Tina’s Treasures, Switchblade Salon, my local CVS Pharmacy, Victoria’s Secret, Bihn & McDaniel Law Firm, AZCOPS union, and Arizona Republic have been amazing. The Facebook group, Booby Buddies, has been amazing. COMPLETE STRANGERS have been amazing.
My world is filled with “amazing.”
… and i have grown increasingly cognizant of this throughout my cancer journey, but i am even more aware of it after closely observing someone whose world is NOT filled with “amazing.” Not only does it make me appreciate all the people in my life even more, but it also reminds me to appreciate MYSELF more. This world is not a free ride. You pay for what you get. If i am getting doses of “amazing” on a regular, ongoing basis, then i must be doing something right with myself.
I appreciate that i was able to reflect on that truth today. Events leading up to this weekend could have led me down a very different emotional path, but i didn’t let them. I stayed focused on keeping a positive mindset and remembering not to stray too far from the goals i have set for myself.
This is progress.