I met with my reconstructive surgeon yesterday to discuss “next steps.”
To reconstruct or not to reconstruct? That is the question that has been keeping me up these past several nights.
I have a consultation at the Mayo Clinic on February 7, to see if my body is eligible for IGAP Flap Reconstruction*. I have three weeks to choose between more doctors, more hospitals, more pain, more recovery time, and more risks; or living out the rest of my life feeling lopsided and less attractive and constantly on display as the one-breasted cancer survivor.
The “strong” choice seems to be NOT getting reconstruction. I just don’t know if i have it in me to live happily with that choice.