(19-02-03) – Explaining the Pain

Yesterday was awful, and when I woke up at 12:15 this morning with shooting pains in my stomach, I thought today would be a repeat. It hasn’t been nearly as intense today as it was yesterday, but I am still mostly lying around in bed, rocking myself while in fetal position and reminding myself that my skin will break out if I don’t stop crying. Dr. Godinez said I should have about four more days of this pain. Anything past that will require me getting taken to a hospital in San Diego for an ultrasound.

According to Dr. Godinez, a combination of factors is causing the intense pain in my stomach. The smaller issue is that having enemas twice in one week likely caused inflammation in my intestines, which is why I was getting such intense pain in my lower stomach, below my belly button. For now, we’re going to hold off on doing any more of those, and I will walk to the grocery store in a couple days to try to find foods with more fiber. They also said they could give me pills to keep everything regular, but I prefer to use food, not technology, to handle this process.

The sharp pain underneath my right rib cage is a direct result of both the vaccine and chemotherapy. While smaller meds typically get broken down in the kidneys before the body disperses and eliminates them, larger meds (like chemo drugs) get broken down in the liver. The liver produces this orange-yellow substance called bilirubin, to help digest things like greasy foods (or, in my case right now, chemo drugs), and the gall bladder is the container that kind of houses all this stuff during the process. As both the vaccine and chemotherapy do their thing in my body, my liver and gall bladder are getting a pretty active workout, and that’s why they’re both screaming in pain right about now. It’s all part of the detoxification process.

Side note: Dr. G assured me that this pain I feel is NOT the result of all the tequila I consume on a regular basis. That helped me feel a little better about myself. 😉

Other side note: One of the Mennonite moms stopped me this morning just outside the laundry room to ask me if I was feeling better today.

“Better,” I said, “but not good.”

“Well, you didn’t look good AT ALL yesterday.”

Bitch, don’t you think I know that already?

Of course, I kept this last comment to myself and chalked it up to inferior Mennonite social skills…but I’ll be spending these next few days isolating in my room until I’m ready to go back out there in shorts and a tank top, just to antagonize them. 🤭

Author: breastcancerat35

I was diagnosed with Stage 3C Invasive Breast Cancer in October/November, 2015. This blog is my way to process my experience and allow my loved ones to have ongoing updates about my journey.

14 thoughts on “(19-02-03) – Explaining the Pain”

  1. So why are there so many Mennonites? I saw an Amish man waiting while his wife had laser spine surgery last month. I was there for a consult. Once I found out this particular facility required me to $15k upfront, I couldn’t help but wonder how the Amish could afford such a thing. Hmm. Things that boggle the mind. Anyway, glad to hear you are feeling a little better today. I hope it continues to improve!

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  2. @karennunley – I asked one of the Mennonite ladies how they afford treatment, and she mentioned a special insurance fund that everyone in their community contributes to.

    Also, I don’t know if you’re aware of this, but the Amish in Pennsylvania, Ohio, and Indiana all participate in a lucrative puppy mill industry. It’s repulsive, quite honestly. I did some research on it years ago: http://www.thepuppymillproject.org


  3. @karennunley – And to answer your “why” question, my guess is that the more holistic and natural approach to this treatment probably vibes more with their religious beliefs. I’m not sure, though.


  4. @crystallanning – No, this is more of a clinic than it is a hospital, so they don’t have that kind of equipment on site. I’d have to go elsewhere, and I will refuse to do it anywhere in Mexico because none of those tests will be covered by insurance.


  5. @crystallanning – They take my blood and can track how many of my cancer cells are active. I’m going to explain all this in a blog next week, once they’ve had time to draw my blood a third time and do a comparative analysis.

    Also, they have drivers here that take us and our guests back and forth across the border.


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