(19-05-06) Bad to Worse

I wish I had better news for you. I don’t. Bullet points of updates:

  • At this point, I am on house arrest. If I don’t need to leave the house for medical or legal purposes, I am not allowed to go.
  • I have pneumonia, which is still obvious from the phlegmy cough from hell I have every day.
  • Did I tell you I was recently in the hospital for six days? It was because my brain tumor was expanding on my brain in such a way that was grossly affecting my motor-coordination, memory, and language skills. Scary day. I thought it was my last.
  • Right now, my medical entendre includes two weeks of pelvis radiation (just finished one), then one week of brain radiation, and chemo on April 19, May 10, & May 31. Then we check on progress, to see if we are making any.
  • I get by on a walker. Tomorrow, a power scooter is being delivered that I spent $400 to rent.
  • One of the reasons I can’t walk is because of the 30 POUNDS that the hospital sent me home with. It’s disgusting. I think I still have 27.
  • I cry every day. Some people tell me not to, so I talk to them less on purpose. Right now, I am living the exact end-of-care that I did NOT want for myself. I think many people forget that.

Author: breastcancerat35

I was diagnosed with Stage 3C Invasive Breast Cancer in October/November, 2015. This blog is my way to process my experience and allow my loved ones to have ongoing updates about my journey.

6 thoughts on “(19-05-06) Bad to Worse”

  1. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I truly wish there was something more I could do to help and ease your pain. I think of you often and will continue to send positive thoughts and energy your way. I’m so sorry. Hugs.

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  2. I’m sending you a special virtual La La hug filled with comforting energies & lots of love. I don’t know why some of us seemingly survive with moderate effort & some of us fight like hell. I hate cancer & I’m sorry & angry that you have to live this way now. I pull up the Mr Santa 🎅 video from our concert occasionally & your part always makes me smile. ❤

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  3. I love you! Thinking of you all the time and remembering all the laughs we’ve shared and of our recent visit in Tijuana. Let me know if you’d like another visit ❤️❤️❤️ We can laugh, cry, sit in silence, whatever you like.

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